To Believe Myself

I could do it! Can you believe it? I can't believe it. The excitement is still running in my body. Was it my dream? No, it was real!

I had a presentation yesterday. In the morning, I was not so nervous because I practiced many times and I had a little confidence. I thought what is important to explain Furoshiki well and changed power point again and again for the audience to easy to understand. However, the anxious suddenly attacked me in second class. From then, my anxious became bigger and bigger as the presentation draw near. After the classes, I changed the clothes. When I looked at me wearing uniform in the mirror, I could braced myself. I practiced a few times and I left my dormitory with spirits.

When I arrived at library, a few audience had already come. After checking my power point, I go out of assembly hall because seeing the stage made my brain more panic. I tried to practice by myself, but I couldn't speak anything then because of nervousness and hastiness and the more I tried to speak something, the more I couldn't. I think it was the peak of my nervousness. Then, Mark came to me and said, "You can do it. Enjoy your presentation." This words let me calm down. From then I could become compose myself. When the presentation of "Junior high school" and "Medical care" were held, our group had last practice in the entrance of Assembly Hall. During this practice, the first group whose members were Yuri, Shoko and Asuka finished their presentation and came. Their faces were shining and filled with achievements. I was sure that my face would be also like theirs after an hour.

Finally our turn came. My heart was beating fast and I thought I would fall down. I had a strong determination that I never lose to nervousness and panic. After the introduce, I had a seat in side of the stage. I was a last presenter in my group, so I saw Ai and Misaki present before I did presentation. They did very good job and I was so moved. I thought I had to do my best for them. After their presentation, my turn came at least. When I stranded in front of the audience, my nervousness was disappeared and my heart was beating slowly. I could win to nervousness! While I speeched, I was so calm that I was surprised. It is because there many faces that I knew, for example, Extension students, RAs and teachers and they gave me power. I didn't regret because it was the maximum power that I could show then.

As soon as I finished the presentation and went outside, I bursted into crying because I was released! My anxious and relief changed to tears and overflew from my eyes. When I saw Mark, I jumped to him. He said to me "Very good job. I enjoyed your presentation. I'm proud of you." I really appreciated him because he answered my question about Furoshiki and when I asked him to listen to my presentation as a practice without appointment, he always said "Of course." pleasantly. He gave me a lot of advice and cheered me up all the time. If he were not here, I couldn't success. Thank you Mark! My friends also smiled me and said "Good job!" I could be successful supported by many people.

This experience gave me many valuable things. First is confidence. Until presentation, I had thought I could not do anything very well and I had no merits. However, I could overcome the demerit that I was afraid of speaking in front of many people. I learned if I believe myself I can do it. I must not give up. Second is appreciation. I really appreciated many people. My parents who were allowed me to join extension program, the teachers who listened to my presentation and friends who cheered me up and supported me. I love all of them. Finally is new aim. Now, my presentation finished, but I want to make a presentation in front of more people and more perfectly someday. I found this presentation was just the process to make more progress for me.
Now, my feeling is filled in achievement. However I had still classes for a week. I will do things that I can in the rest of time in America and enjoy the rest of classes to go back to Japan proudly.